A Glimpse into the Moon's soul...

my life is spiraling. out of control. and i don't want it to stop. but i don't want anyone hurt either. i don't know what to do. the Dragon may have swallowed the Sun, but he left the Stars, shining. ride the waves dear Moon Mermaid...see where it leads you.

Hoping to get a tat Saturday, on the one year anniversary of my first. I am uber excited!

-Moon

you wouldn't believe me if I told you.

Silently screaming
inside
no one can hear me
so no one can care
to let it out would be
slow painful soul death
keep it inside
as always
heart so full of confusion
soul so full of pain
even "spirits" can not
take it away

...for the first time in nearly 15 years, I have the urge to cut myself. but I won't. I have overcome that. maybe I need a tattoo.

When you feel that you may be losing something you never really had in the first place...why does it still hurt?

I was so devastated and thought that I would carry that pain in my heart for life...not so. The Sun God and his Star are happy and I am happy for them. The Sun God opened a door, perhaps that really was his purpose.

Mangkon, the Dragon has filled my heart with longing and love that is so much stronger than what I felt with the Sun God. The Moon is no longer exiling herself in the dark cave, she has turned into a Moon Angel, flying wrapped safely in the wings of the Dragon.

I still have a similar problem...Mangkon is 6 hours ahead of me timezone wise. He lives in South Africa...not nearly as far away as New Zealand, but from where I am...it might as well be.

I tried to save my marriage, and though we are still together, I am not sure it is still an actual marriage. I love him, but...

My heart lies in the heart of the Dragon, I am the Dragon's Angel...

}-Moon Angel-{

So innocently I friended her

She was cheeky, we had some good laughs

We had things in common

If only I had known how many...

We talked about life

kids, jobs and hobbies

Teased mutual friends

on internet networking sites...

I thought she was my friend

I was betrayed

I shared my heart with her

While she was busy taking yours...

-Moon

and still I can not let go.
still he has my heart.
still I wish to be there.

I am intuitive, and I know a soul connection when I have one. We have one. How long he will be able to ignore it and continue with what he thought was the 'sensible' thing to do, I do not know...but the connection was there, instantly and it remained there...soul connections do not go away. He and I are meant to be together, I feel it, I know it.

He needs to realise it.

-Moon

I had the most beautiful dream this morning...I hope it is a sign...we'll see.

-Moon

Last night I had some great sex with my husband. Afterward, I cried.

Its been just over a month since my Sun God went away...and I am still hurting.

I thought maybe I would try to "get it back" with my husband, and I have tried...it is not working...and it obviously didn't work last night...as good as the sex was, I silently sobbed in the dark as he lay beside me.

I want my Sun God.

-Moon

I was ready to give up everything I knew for you...my home, everything familiar...even my COUNTRY!  I would still give all that up for you...I will give all that up for you...when I go to be with you, my Sun God. I love you.

-Moon